Hopelessness

I am a hopeless person.

Wait, no, rephrase- I am a VERY hopeless person.

Getting caught in the same situation over and over again without learning my lesson the first time tells me what a hopeless person I am.

It hurts, as always. And I tell myself- You idiot! See to it that you are not so stupid again!

But still...

If there were ever an award for the most hopeless person on earth, I'm sure that I'll get it.