Numb

After trying to log into UTAR's Portal from morning till night, the damned thing is finally loggable. The only thing is, I'm not prepared to see my results.

After a 14-week sem of slaving over my studies and trying to balance between the numerous activities that I have, I was lying to myself that my time management is ok.

Although deep down, I knew I was going to drop, secretly, I hoped that the drop would not be too far nor that painful.

Seeing the alphabets on the screen and comparing it to what others might get always makes me feel stupid. Then I'll be all unreasonable and asking God why can't he give me a bit more brains...

I need to learn the art of surrendering everything to Him...